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Yeah, right. Valentines day. Singles awareness day.  The day of pink and purple.

YECH!

Last year at this time, my heart was soaring.  This year phttt!  I think I will simply give up on women altogether.  They really aren't worth all the heart ache and pain.

Sometimes, I just think I'll find one that just wants to be a "friend" - yeah, sure.  Then I think I'll just become a "user", and take what I want and the hell with them if they don't like it.  Leave a wake of weeping women in my wake.

But, I can't do that either.  I'm not "mean" enough. Or selfish enough. Or something.  I guess what I am in naive.   I once believed that love was real, that people said what they meant, and that when someone said they were willing to work on  relationship, it meant exactly that - not "... until I feel that it's not worth it because of some perceived wrong that I'm not telling you about, so you'll be left wondering why"

What a load of shit.

Anyway, you can tell I'm in a really good mood today, huh?  And it only promises to get worse until the 14th - and then it will be a bit better for a while.

I don't want to be "rescued' or to rescue anyone.  I just want someone that will be honest with me, and not change the rules midstream (yes, I AM mixing my metaphors, tough shit)

Women - HA!

But sadly, for all the bitching i do about it, if the right one came along, and *was* honest and sincere (truly sincere) and genuine - I'd probably fall for her in a heartbeat. Well, I hope i wouldn't be so damaged from the past that I could fall for her, anyway.

EOM

I am still alive.

It's been a very long time since I've written to this blog.  I guess I still feel as if I am on the outside looking in.  For those that remember a couple years back, you will know what I am talking about.

My life is about to become both more complicated and simpler in the next month or so.

Of course, this is helped along by the fact that my ex has decided that she is going to finally go to the job in Chicago, but that I now need to help subsidize the daughters rent on the townhouse that the ex decided they had to rent.

So, once again, I am essentially paying for her to have a place to live.  I have made it clear, tho, that this is a temporary arrangement, and that she needs to figure out what to do - like tell the daughter to start looking for her own place.

All that, and nothing new on the "personal relationship" horizon and life just keeps on keeping on.

EOM